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Several years ago, I took a major step that I believed would lead me to complete happiness: I moved to France to be with the man I loved, my husband. I left behind a successful business, my home, family and friends, hoping to begin a new and extraordinary chapter of my life.
But reality turned out to be far more complicated.
LOST IN A NEW LIFE
For the first three years, I focused on adapting. I learned French, adjusted to a new culture and found my way through the everyday realities of life in another country. I gave myself time to discover what I truly wanted to do, because my previous career was no longer accessible without the right documents, language skills and complete immersion in a new environment.
We lived far from the big cities, where having a car was essential. But getting behind the wheel meant retaking the driving exams — and taking them without speaking the language was a challenge of its own. Anyone learning French will understand.
At the same time, my husband wanted us to have more time together. He supported me in everything, but I knew from experience what starting a business from scratch required: for it to truly succeed, you have to give it your whole self.
I COULD ALREADY FEEL MYSELF LOSING WHO I WAS
I explored different paths, drawing on my creative abilities. I even managed to monetise some of them, but none of it brought me joy. I felt empty, as though I were living inside a golden cage. I was haunted by guilt: how could I complain about my life when I had everything — a loving husband, a home, support and security?
And yet, deep inside, I felt profoundly empty. I began experiencing panic attacks, fears and sleepless nights. It felt as though I was slowly destroying myself from within.
I remembered how, at 18, I had found myself alone with a small child, without support or a job — and somehow managed to survive, build a home and create a successful business. And now, surrounded by comfort and security, I had given up.
THE TURNING POINT
The hardest year was the one when, during a routine medical examination, a doctor told me: “There is a suspicion of breast cancer”. My world collapsed. I suddenly saw my entire life in front of me — everything I had accomplished and everything I had left unfinished. I realised that tomorrow might never come. That was the moment I knew I had to change something.
I began searching for ways to help myself. I read extensively about the body, mind and emotions. I explored different practices, methods and approaches. There were mistakes and disappointments, but there were also small moments of insight that slowly began to transform the way I felt. Every day, I tried to quiet the stream of chaotic thoughts in my mind.
Teachers began entering my life, opening new paths and perspectives. Yoga, breathwork and meditation became my anchors. When the diagnosis was confirmed, I was already prepared. When the doctor told me that surgery would be necessary, I responded calmly. He even asked me again whether I had understood him. Yes, I had. And for the first time in a very long time, I felt strong.
THE STRENGTH WITHIN ME
The surgery was successful. But two weeks later, my doctor told me I would need a second one: they had found involvement of the lymph nodes. It was another blow. But I found the strength to go deeper into my practices. Yoga, meditation and breathwork became part of every day of my life.
During my radiotherapy sessions, I meditated, followed my breath and learned to notice even the smallest changes in my inner state. The people around me often looked exhausted and drained, while I felt alive, energised and ready to live.
My body responded to the inner work. Even after the second surgery, I didn’t take painkillers. A week later, I was already practising yoga and gently working to restore movement in my arm.
A NEW PATH
Discovering myself through serving others
When my treatment came to an end, I felt ready to move forward. I already knew that our inner resources can be far greater than we realise when we learn to work with the body, mind and soul. I decided to deepen my knowledge so that I could help not only myself, but others as well.
Immediately after my final radiotherapy session, I began training in Kundalini Yoga. It became a year of intensive practice and deep immersion. Every breath and every meditation revealed new strength within me. Alongside this, I trained as a Hatha Yoga teacher, which helped me rediscover balance and a sense of grounding.
Then Cosmoenergy entered my life. The initiations opened a connection to what I experienced as universal energies flowing through me, filling me with light and strength. As I began working with people, I witnessed them release fears and inner blocks and saw their lives begin to change.
My next step was studying regression therapy, which allowed me to explore the roots of deeply held patterns and let go of old programmes. I began to understand how much unnecessary weight we carry within ourselves.
After regression work, I discovered what I experienced as healing energies of a new era — practices working with the body, mind and soul to create a sense of holistic healing. I saw my clients change. I saw their eyes fill with light and confidence. Those transformations inspired me to keep going.
CREATING MY MISSION
I spent that summer on a secluded island in Canada, far away from the noise and constant flow of information. Three weeks surrounded by silence, nature and deep meditation gave me a profound realisation: Everything I had been learning — yoga, Cosmoenergy, regression and healing practices — was meant to become something greater.
When I returned, everything came together. I created my own unique methodology, bringing together my experience and knowledge into a holistic approach to deep healing and transformation.
